No words can replace what you’ve been experiencing now even sorry cannot heal what is broken. So ni matter how many sorry she tells you it’s not enough. Stop questioning yourself because you deserve someone better than what she had now. Maybe you are not destined for each other. Maybe she’s only an instrument of life to separate what is not destined to be. Maybe that’s her purpose of finding her love too. She understands you but you will never understand her. Because her role is something different, something unjust and not fit into society. What she did is unacceptable to us. Maybe that’s her way of finding love too. So let go and be happy. God bless sender, I feel you. My heart beets only for you.